[Shut up, is what she intended, but the word gets choked off, as her breath heaves again. Hysteria is fading, quickly, bleeding out of her and leaving every muscle feeling wrung-out and limp Fuck, she thinks again, and the start of her glare gets cut off as she shuts her eyes, shoves her fingers up to press her fingertips against her eyelids, stars bursting across her vision.
And she tries it, what Kate suggested. She breathes in; it shakes; she counts. Two, three, fucking God fucking-- three, four, five, six-- Shoulders hunched, she tries to make her knees bend too, bring them up to her chest, but it's like she doesn't have any control over them.]
I can't-- oh, fuck--
[More miserable than angry. She presses her fingertips, hard, against her eyes, makes the stars burst again. If her legs don't work, she can't run. She wants to leave, to jump out of the bed and take off. She wants to stay where she is, close--not to Kate, but to Kate, everything is so fucking tangled-- In, two, three, four; she tries to fix her attention there. Fuck, fuck fuck fuck.]
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Sh--
[Shut up, is what she intended, but the word gets choked off, as her breath heaves again. Hysteria is fading, quickly, bleeding out of her and leaving every muscle feeling wrung-out and limp Fuck, she thinks again, and the start of her glare gets cut off as she shuts her eyes, shoves her fingers up to press her fingertips against her eyelids, stars bursting across her vision.
And she tries it, what Kate suggested. She breathes in; it shakes; she counts. Two, three, fucking God fucking-- three, four, five, six-- Shoulders hunched, she tries to make her knees bend too, bring them up to her chest, but it's like she doesn't have any control over them.]
I can't-- oh, fuck--
[More miserable than angry. She presses her fingertips, hard, against her eyes, makes the stars burst again. If her legs don't work, she can't run. She wants to leave, to jump out of the bed and take off. She wants to stay where she is, close--not to Kate, but to Kate, everything is so fucking tangled-- In, two, three, four; she tries to fix her attention there. Fuck, fuck fuck fuck.]